Falling Backwards

ok, so in my last post things were going relativly well. However i've dosedived quiet a bit. Since Tuesday and it is know Saturday night, i've eatten as much in that span as most people eat in about a day. As far as liquids i've only consumed coffee, diet coke, and hot chocolate. That's right no water. i know this is not good, not good at all. The first few days were really difficult for me, and know even if i want to eat, it just seems kinda hard.
Like today for example, i ate 1/2 a chicken salad wrap w/lettuce...know this is a good decision, healthy, everything like that, i know this. For hours after i'm practically beating myself over the head for doing it. Now i know how many calories about i just ate, it's not that much, but for some reason i couldn't get over the fact that i stuffed that 1/2 a wrap in my mouth. And i'm thinkin, this is a good thing. You ate something that's good for you. At least your not going to pass out from not eating, but ED is just so obnoxious that he doesn't care.
Now what's a girl to do when faced with this delema?(think i spelled that wrong, sorry)

Anyway on a better note, i went to Endicott College Open House, and my god i think i'm in love.
I so want to go there. Now i just have to apply and get in. So i've been thinking about boarding, and my gosh what an experience i think i would have. However i have a dog and cat, that i love with my entire heart. Now my cat my mom will take care of, so sure if i went away i'd miss him, but he'd be there for me to see on weekends, and holidays. Now my dog, my mom won't take care of, so what do i do with her. It would break my heart to give her away and never see her agian. Plus is that fair to her? If anyone has any suggestions here, i'd really appreciate them.