I"M BACK

ok, so it's been a super long time since my last blog.
I'm going to see Alice and Wonderland tonight, and i'm so excited.

But back to treatment related things. As most of you know i fell off the recoery wagon around Christmas. Things got so bad. I had basically stopped eating and lost 11 lbs in two weeks. So over Feb. break i decided that i need to get back on track. i started looking into treatment options again. But i didn't want to miss school or prom or my trip to Europe so i haven't gone. i did decide to get back onto a meal plan though. So it is week two of the meal plan i was on when i left CEDC. I feel horrible. I don't even feel like i'm maintaining like i did in CEDC, but gaining. Everyone says it's because i wasn't eating, but it sucks. I'm going to give it until i come back from Europe. I better be loosing weight in a healthy way by then. If i'm not i don't know what i'm going to do. I've also been given the ok to exercise again. If i'm not doing better i fear for relapse, and don't know if i'll be strong enough to ask for help this time.

I need some advice on how to beat eds ass on my own.