My stomach hurts so badly. I had really been trying to stay on my meal plan. Over the weekend I went back to restricting. Fri. and Sat. I hardly ate anything. Sunday became more or less a bulimic day, but then I thought I should get back on track again so I ate and didn't purge. But I feel like I'm really paying for that know. My stomach feels like it's going to explode. I'm getting sick of following my plan already and I've only been back on it for two weeks. I don't know how long i can keep this up. I know I have to be eating regulary w/o purging to go to Europe, which is in 30 days. But I don't know if I can hold out that long.
On another note....this is a long story so none of you know. I have a twin. Well he begged my mom to let his girlfriend move in and she's driving me crazy. She's not working right now, so all she does all day everyday is sit in his room watching TV and texting. It's not fair. I did not agree to clean up after another person. She was suppose to help out around the house and she's not. She doesn't do anything. And to top it all off I'm jealous of her because she's so skinny. She's a x-small in clothes. She eats what ever she wants and she eats 3x a day, but she eats small amounts. Its not fair. Why is she so skinny and how does she stay that way?
About Me
- RachelsRecoveryLand
- Hi,I'm 26 years old, and am currently an Salem state university senior. My major there is social work. This blog is tracking my recovery though my eating disorder, which is bulimia with anorexic tendancies. So i hope that you all can learn something through my posts and give me some good ideas.
shes so skinny becayuse she hasnt had to go through everything youve had to, but obviously she's still lazy as hell. just keep up with your meal plan - i hate to say this but you know nothing else will get you where you eventually want to be/ i know your sick of following it because your not used to it and you felt more comfortable the other way, but following a meal plan [i think] gives you a lot of control over ED.
ReplyDeleteits kinda like a big 'f you' to him, right?
Thanks Jen:) I know your right. But it's just really hard sometimes.
ReplyDeleteI like the 'f you ED'